Lying on my bed. Listening to the heavy raindrops hitting against the window. A usual calming sound brings anxiety. Relaxation brings only restlessness. Energy only leads to exhaustion. Too many thoughts plague my mind. Lonely thoughts keep me from reaching out. I'm fine I repeat to myself, unconvincingly. I'm fine just living in this negative... Continue Reading →
Depression In The Bed
Laying in my bed. Feeling like quicksand. Sinking into the sheets. And the pillows follow. Dark thoughts and swirling stars. Monsters have moved from underneath the bed to the corners of my mind. Looking down I see a depression left in the bed. Just an impression of my former self. Header Photo Credit to... Continue Reading →
Late Night Anxiety
The Moon is out. The air is cold. The silence is all around us. It holds us still. We see our breath dance in the air. A cloud of hopes and fears and dreams. The cold is bound to our bones. We stand in silence. The world is too big. We are too small. Everything... Continue Reading →
Haunted Life
Haunted by a restless spirit. One that drains the happiness and corrupts the thoughts. It keeps the curtains drawn and the world dark. It's a shadow that clings to it host, holding it down. It makes joy taste empty and sadness filling. It poisons the mind and keeps it weak. The spirit keeps the host... Continue Reading →
Numb
Sitting here with just my thoughts. My breathing. In. Out. In. Out. Not wanting to do or be. Just a wallflower. Clinging. Clinging to life. Clinging to anything. Feeling numb. Not feeling. Just stuck in the background screaming. Silent. No motivation. No ambition. No way out. No feeling in my fingers or toes. Numb from... Continue Reading →
Weekly Blog June 10th, 2018: The Stupid Side of Your Brain
National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 Hello Internet! I just want to forewarn everyone that we are going to be talking about some heavy subjects in today's Weekly Blog. These are things that have been said before and will probably be said in the future, but it will be a slight deviation from the regular Weekly... Continue Reading →
Weekly Blog April 22nd, 2018: It Doesn’t Cost You Anything To Be Nice.
Hello Internet! As always, I hope you had a wonderful week! For me it was a bit of a mixed bag, but also full of excitement. Lots of good and lots of bad mixed up in a pretty busy week. Anyway here on the website we had another successful week. No records broken or milestones... Continue Reading →
Spiraling
It's kind of funny how a good day can become a bad day. Like you can be having a fine day. And then it becomes bad. Out of nowhere. I'll be sitting at home. By myself. Not doing anything. Then my mind will start thinking. Overthinking. I'll start thinking about my day and start thinking... Continue Reading →
Thinking About Rain
Sitting under the water's surface. Looking up and seeing small droplets of rain hit the surface. Little pattern of rings dancing above you. Waiting for someone to pick you up. Staring out at the rain as it hits the blacktop. The low drum of it hitting the rooftop fills your ears. Camping in the woods.... Continue Reading →