Lying in my bed again. I’m watching the shadows dance across the ceiling, As cars drive by outside my window. I feel myself entering the valley of despair. Wondering what’s going to be on the other side for me, Wondering what I'm going to be, What I'll give up and leave behind. Wish I had... Continue Reading →
Let me dream through the nightmares. Let me endure through the pain. Let me remember the good times and the laughs that we shared there. Let me resist the hollowness growing inside and the desire to give up. Let me find space, safety, and warmth. Let me see the light shining overhead again. Let me... Continue Reading →
Shouting out to the universe,Demanding an audience.Things have to start getting better,Or else it’s just another day wasted.Trying to convince the universe,Or should I start with convincing myself?So hard to move mountains,With this weight upon my chest. Can’t make the universe play nice,When I’m fighting with myself.Lying in bed, head spinning,Trying to assure myself that... Continue Reading →
Wrapping my arms around myselfTrying to keep all the pieces together.The pressureThe only thing keeping me whole.Teeth clenched and lip closed.Worried I’ll open my mouth and it will all spill out. Header Photo Credit to Pexels.comhttps://www.pexels.com/photo/photo-of-woman-sitting-on-floor-3007355/
Lying on my bed. Listening to the heavy raindrops hitting against the window. A usual calming sound brings anxiety. Relaxation brings only restlessness. Energy only leads to exhaustion. Too many thoughts plague my mind. Lonely thoughts keep me from reaching out. I'm fine I repeat to myself, unconvincingly. I'm fine just living in this negative... Continue Reading →
Laying in my bed. Feeling like quicksand. Sinking into the sheets. And the pillows follow. Dark thoughts and swirling stars. Monsters have moved from underneath the bed to the corners of my mind. Looking down I see a depression left in the bed. Just an impression of my former self. Header Photo Credit to... Continue Reading →
The Moon is out. The air is cold. The silence is all around us. It holds us still. We see our breath dance in the air. A cloud of hopes and fears and dreams. The cold is bound to our bones. We stand in silence. The world is too big. We are too small. Everything... Continue Reading →
Haunted by a restless spirit. One that drains the happiness and corrupts the thoughts. It keeps the curtains drawn and the world dark. It's a shadow that clings to it host, holding it down. It makes joy taste empty and sadness filling. It poisons the mind and keeps it weak. The spirit keeps the host... Continue Reading →
Sitting here with just my thoughts. My breathing. In. Out. In. Out. Not wanting to do or be. Just a wallflower. Clinging. Clinging to life. Clinging to anything. Feeling numb. Not feeling. Just stuck in the background screaming. Silent. No motivation. No ambition. No way out. No feeling in my fingers or toes. Numb from... Continue Reading →
National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 Hello Internet! I just want to forewarn everyone that we are going to be talking about some heavy subjects in today's Weekly Blog. These are things that have been said before and will probably be said in the future, but it will be a slight deviation from the regular Weekly... Continue Reading →
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