So many voices of people pulling me in all directions. Yet, I remain here. Stuck. Wondering if I'm too far gone. To do something meaningful with my life. Header Photo Credit to Pexels.comhttps://www.pexels.com/photo/man-in-gray-long-sleeve-shirt-sitting-on-brown-wooden-chair-5255996/
Lonesome
A lonesome soul. Watching the wayward water droplets race against the window glass. Wrapped up in a blanket of darkness and stars. Do not believe the deceiver living in your brain. Even as their words get harder to ignore. They add pressure to your chest. Midnight thoughts bleed into the sunrise. Usually the light is... Continue Reading →
Weekly Blog January 15th, 2023: My Themes For 2023
Hello Internet! I hope you all are doing well and staying healthy! Happy New Year! I know that it’s mid-January now but I have been on a break since before Christmas so I haven’t gotten a chance to wish you all a Happy New Year. Hopefully you haven’t given up on your New Year Resolutions... Continue Reading →
Weekly Blog September 4th, 2022: Dealing With Major Burnout
Hello Internet! That’s right. You’re not imagining things. It’s a new Weekly Blog from me, Allen. It has been over six weeks since we’ve had one of these. I know I joked that these Weekly Blogs were becoming monthly blogs but now we’re entering bimonthly territory. As you may or may not have noticed, I... Continue Reading →
Pull Off A Miracle
Trying to pull off a miracle. Trying to set it loose. Need some way to get better. To live and produce. Living with burn out. Just cinders and sparks. The good times grow thinner. Leaving me in the dark. Throwing a feast. While famine sits at the table. Just spinning hay into gold. Like they... Continue Reading →
Overwhelmed
Laying down on my bed, staring up. Too hard to get up and move. Feeling crushed by the loneliness. Even the quiet is too overwhelming. Paralyzed by choice. Paralyzed by the demons in my sleep. Brain overworking is causing brain fog. Can't see through it. Can't think - through it. Deep breaths and white noise.... Continue Reading →
Weekly Blog January 23rd, 2022: Health and Reading
Hello Internet! I hope everyone is doing well and staying healthy. I am doing well and trying my best to stay warm during this winter weather. Where I live, we have had several days of snow, sleet, ice, and more. So just a reminder to stay safe while traveling. Lots of people seem to forget... Continue Reading →
Cold Gray World
Hands in your pockets, gripped tight on reality. Heavy, wool scarf wrapped around the face. Misty eyes barely visible. A layer of frost on the coat helps complete the ensemble. Uneven breaths form thin clouds. The cold, gray world seems distant. Unable to find yourself while standing in the crowd. Church bells ring hollow. "Reach out if you need anything."When... Continue Reading →
Quiet Moments
In the quiet moments I feel. Disconnected. Thinking too much about myself. And I get bored. Restless. Worried. I want to speak to someone else. Take the attention off me, please, and give it to the world. Make small talk. Give big talks. Make the world notice you. Not me though. I'm quiet. I'm thinking.... Continue Reading →
Weekly Blog August 15th, 2021: Ride Your Wave
***WILL CONTAIN SPOILERS FOR RIDE YOUR WAVE*** Hello Internet! I hope everyone is doing well and having a great week or month. I mean it has been awhile since I had a proper Weekly Blog, so sorry about that. But I’m back and I have an Anime Movie to talk about this week, so that’s... Continue Reading →