Endure

A savage beating.Unrelenting fists collide.Leaving you fighting for a breath. Coming after you again and again.Leaving nothing but bruises.Deep scars left all over the body. Every day a struggle against life and it's every attack.Piling on top of you without hesitation.But yet you still endure. Every attack leaves you exhausted.But just like Captain America, you... Continue Reading →

Maybe Next Time

You'll get it next time.It's right around the corner.The next opportunity, the next thing. The silver lining keeps getting promised butThere are only dark storm clouds in sight.How long can I carry on. Just keep holding on.Just a little bit longer.Life keeps pulling that football away. Just keep falling for the same old tricks.Never learning.Always... Continue Reading →

Negative Headspace

Lying on my bed. Listening to the heavy raindrops hitting against the window. A usual calming sound brings anxiety. Relaxation brings only restlessness. Energy only leads to exhaustion. Too many thoughts plague my mind. Lonely thoughts keep me from reaching out. I'm fine I repeat to myself, unconvincingly. I'm fine just living in this negative... Continue Reading →

Depression In The Bed

Laying in my bed. Feeling like quicksand. Sinking into the sheets. And the pillows follow. Dark thoughts and swirling stars. Monsters have moved from underneath the bed to the corners of my mind. Looking down I see a depression left in the bed. Just an impression of my former self.   Header Photo Credit to... Continue Reading →

Summertime Affective Disorder

It's a hot, Summer day. The sun is shining and heat radiates off everything. On these sunny days, you're supposed to be happy. So why do I feel this way? When winter comes and the sun gets low. People's moods get low. The snowy weather makes people sad. But the sunshine is supposed to make... Continue Reading →

Late Night Anxiety

The Moon is out. The air is cold. The silence is all around us. It holds us still. We see our breath dance in the air. A cloud of hopes and fears and dreams. The cold is bound to our bones. We stand in silence. The world is too big. We are too small. Everything... Continue Reading →

Haunted Life

Haunted by a restless spirit. One that drains the happiness and corrupts the thoughts. It keeps the curtains drawn and the world dark. It's a shadow that clings to it host, holding it down. It makes joy taste empty and sadness filling. It poisons the mind and keeps it weak. The spirit keeps the host... Continue Reading →

Numb

Sitting here with just my thoughts. My breathing. In. Out. In. Out. Not wanting to do or be. Just a wallflower. Clinging. Clinging to life. Clinging to anything. Feeling numb. Not feeling. Just stuck in the background screaming. Silent. No motivation. No ambition. No way out. No feeling in my fingers or toes. Numb from... Continue Reading →

Back Home

I thought things would be normal, but they aren't. Normal life isn't so normal anymore. Things like hearing a car backfire or the sound of fireworks, leaves ringing in my ears. The sound of construction, or a balloon popping, or even popcorn in the microwave. All of it brings me back. I'm always on edge.... Continue Reading →

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